Last greenbox with you aLL...

Yesterday night went to celebrate two of my house mates birthday.....is a tradition for our house...thats mean we went there every year since we met to celebrate their birthday.....although i seldom hang out with them because most of the times i will go out with my dear charlyn, but ....it was a long, memorable night for me though...so next year won't be celebrating with them anymore....luckily still have dozens of photos to refresh my memory in the future....

SEE YOU AGAIN.........('',)

my friends always tell me..don't worry about being single..you will meet your Mr. right one day...so the day had came..

i "accidentally" met a friend through facebook..well sounds rude for him but really can't find a better word to describe....and we became close after few times chatting...he told me about his trip to bangkok, how he find himself so into histories at China, and how he tried to chase his dream girl at there but at last he came back alone...still single!! He went almost everywhere and he loves taking photos with different weird but funny pose..Hong Kong, Bali, Islands, Singapore....He just loves to travel...

....And he ask me out...oh my god i am so so nervous...i always advice my friends not to meet up with friends like this but i say YES this time....and i am not regret after i went out with him....he's really funny and cute...cutest i had ever met for this year...hahaha...i gave him 80% out of 100% for the first impression..

we went dinner together and after that we watched a comedy..although is my second time watching that movie...but this time i laughed louder then before...i can be MYSELF in front of him...i can laugh out loud like i always do, wear as casual and as sporty i want...enjoy my supper and don't even have to worry about my weight, although i am trying hard to put down my weight...WOW!! what can i say...one night is more than enough for me....

But his leaving to Beijing after one week and will stay at there for three months...so..we will just be friend for now...long distance is the most suffer relationship for me...and what can i say...we just went out one night...maybe my first impression for him not as perfect as i thought him...so...not a bad thing to have one more friend...especially friend that you thinks he's so cute and humorous...

Take good care and make sure you gain as much life experience that helps you through your future....i will miss you for these few weeks...haha...

bag'aholic???

i seriously have to change...if not i cannot survive...sometimes woman's like using 'shopping' as an excuse to express their madness or when they are sad..the most suitable example is in front of u...is ME!!!!

I'm the worst in the worst i can tell...i always bought things that i love but i won't use....but sometimes nice things have very limited function. For example, a really nice bag normally can't put enormous stuff in it. and you probably won't do that because it will spoil your bag. The price is the major problem, expensive but you can't put all your stuff in it?? if my mom's knew she would probably said: "WHAT?? you spent so much money buy a bag that have space only for your hp and wallet? then you better buy a plastic bag.....my bag can .....bla bla......" so....why ppl still spent that kinda money??

i have dozens of bag that have limited space but when i bring along to shopping, my friends will tell my my bag is really nice...and some said they want to buy this kind of bag a long time ago but they just can't find it? they ask where to buy and their first thing to do the next weekend is to search for the BAG that your using....the one that have very limited space.....huh...sometimes this cheer me up and i walk proudly with my little bag besides me...

no matter what...i just LOVE to shop for bags and those woman stuff.....i don't care my wardrobe full with all those " nice " things..i know i will have chance to use it one day......i just knew it...and...that's why i bought a really small and quite expensive bag today...and i am happy :)

if it makes you happy...it can't be that bad...

i am worried about my dear friend...she's the greatest room mate and friend i had ever met..recently she met a guy...a good guy i can tell... he can be the most perfect bf for her because he got everything she want.....a great job, a nice car, a good look, an appropriate height, and his smile would probably wash away her moody face and this guy really makes her laugh..........but he don't have time.....and that's a huge problem for now...

my best friend was so free almost everyday...because she's still studying...i now understand why people miss the moment at school....and is the most valuable memory for them...and the "Mr. good guy" is busy with his job almost everyday include weekends plus holiday....he can hardly squeeze a second for my girlfriend until he finish all his job...and this will be a great opportunity for her to get angry.....

she's not so happy these few days because he can't promise her a trip to an island...well girl...if he makes you happy....it can't be that bad.....then why the hell that you so sad.....just try your best to keep this relationship because if you deserve him...then you will own her heart no matter what....huh..i hope their relationship can last forever......

~~The Best song that describe my feeling~~

Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love...

i kept repeated this song...every morning after i wake up, and every night before i sleep..i remember the first time i brought him to my friends...they gave me a " surprise " looked....that i had expected..he's a Malay guy...but like she sang..i don't care what they say, how they think, and how they feel...because something really happened between us..something very special that totally changed me...but at last...is really hard to believe that we end up like this...yes he did cut me open..and i did bleed...nothing hurts me more when a guy do wrong but still pretend that his right...and keep deny the truth....i am getting tired i guess..but i will wear this scars for the rest of my life....

bad mood day........ :(

i have no idea why but i'm really not in the mood today...wake up at 9a.m. still i don't feel like leaving my bed......okay i missed my 10 o'clock class and PS msg me.....still i don't feel like leaving my bed.....i rather spend my time alone in my room....listen to my favorite love song....although they sound so sad for me....but sometimes alone is better then to mingle with those "rude and like to take advantages on other ppl" friends..........

well, he called 7 times today but i didn't pick up his phone call...i don't know what to say....should i just act really cool and greet him like a friend, or should i answer his phone call and cry like those heart broken teenager and ask for his explanation??i don't want both....i just want his voice disappear in my memory....and after a while his voice will become a stranger to me.......huh.what we thought always seems so easy then what we do....this is real life and i shouldn't be ashame to face my relationship problems...everyone has their own problems anyway...just that they don't share with their friends......and suffer on their own i guess...

i'm still in a bad mood.....and no one can help me unless myself....so please be strong andrea!!! love yourself........more than anyone else.

sometimes love just ain't enough.....

he's the reason i start writing my blog....... i had met a guy one year ago....i thought he was the right one for me...everything seems so great and happy when we were together...i laugh when he was joking, i wore dress and put on makeup just for him, i slept late just to went supper with him, i stop clubbing because he doesn't like it......i likes washing his clothes and wake him up every morning although he seldom pick up my phone call....just to hear his voice before i sleep can make me dream about him all night...i was crazy in love with him and i thought he felt the same way like me.....just when i thought we will have more great time together....time and distance change everything.......and sadness began.................... i am too sad to write what's happen latter...sometimes taking chances is not what we thought....Celine Dion sang : "what do you say to taking chances..."but what do you say when people changed as time goes by...because..."this is going too fast and maybe is not meant to last". So...what do you say......i had nothing to say.........just let it fade away....