Wednesday, December 31, 2008
my christmas celebration.....
well....this year Christmas i get to spent with my dearest sister at kl....although is not going so well like what i'd planned....but my sister did a lot of shopping and she bought almost everything she wish for....we went shopping......and shopping........and shopping....until i can barely feel my feet...then my sister wana sing k...i brought her to greenbox......from 8pm till 1am....both of us speak like the nanny the day after that....we went TGI Friday with my friends for christmas dinner...had a lot of fun though....
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
♥ Just another raining day ♥
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I hate raining days...because i don't like to get wet when i go out...and i don't like to hold umbrella..
At my place people driving like crazy when raining, they kept avoiding holes without even looking at their side mirrors, that's why accidents always happened during raining days..and i can't forgot last few years when my place flood!! huh...ya some people will think is fun because at their place never flood..but can you imagine yellowish water ( imagine teh ais ) around your house and you are force to walk into teh ais that you don't even know where it come from just to get into your car...GOD!!! You may get leg infections for that...
Well..... still have some sweet memories during flood when i was small...i remember playing teh ais with my brother, pretend to catch fish and imagine both of us were fishermen...aiyoo....i won't do that now off course....
But my friends always tell how romantic to walk in the rain with her bf....Erm...for me i'm not sure...maybe i'll piss off if my bf even ask me out during rain....unless he has ways to keep me dry...if not i think i'll just stay at home....
For me..romantic is when my bf let me stay at home...and he go out ta pao my favourite food and hot coffee..then both of us stay at home enjoy our meal..coffee..watch movie...talk...talk..and then
sleep...HUHUHU....romantic looooo!!!!
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I hate raining days...because i don't like to get wet when i go out...and i don't like to hold umbrella..
At my place people driving like crazy when raining, they kept avoiding holes without even looking at their side mirrors, that's why accidents always happened during raining days..and i can't forgot last few years when my place flood!! huh...ya some people will think is fun because at their place never flood..but can you imagine yellowish water ( imagine teh ais ) around your house and you are force to walk into teh ais that you don't even know where it come from just to get into your car...GOD!!! You may get leg infections for that...
Well..... still have some sweet memories during flood when i was small...i remember playing teh ais with my brother, pretend to catch fish and imagine both of us were fishermen...aiyoo....i won't do that now off course....
But my friends always tell how romantic to walk in the rain with her bf....Erm...for me i'm not sure...maybe i'll piss off if my bf even ask me out during rain....unless he has ways to keep me dry...if not i think i'll just stay at home....
For me..romantic is when my bf let me stay at home...and he go out ta pao my favourite food and hot coffee..then both of us stay at home enjoy our meal..coffee..watch movie...talk...talk..and then
sleep...HUHUHU....romantic looooo!!!!
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Sunday, November 16, 2008
I WANT A TATTOO !!!!!
I seriously thinking of doing a tattoo on my lower backside, I've been planning for years but still don't have the guts to do it...when i saw my friends with a super cool design on his or her body....gosh...i felt so jealous...
But..i scared the pain and the sound of the tattoo machine...that's why i am afraid to meet the dentist too...the Zizzzz..Zizzzz...sound really really annoyed me..but i'd decided to put away all my fears and go for it!! i'm doing a tattoo this month!!! I'd already printed out my design and i will put on my MP3 to ignore the annouying Zizzzz..Zizzzz..sound.
I will not ask for my parents permission since every time I brought up that idea, my parents said something along the lines of, “We’re kicking you out of the house AND we’re not paying for your grad school tuition if we saw some painting on your body!!”
Some of my girl friends reports that getting a tattoo is the second most painful experience of their life, next to childbirth. Boys said :'' Ahh...is nothing...just like ant bites..." So i will never know which one of them is true until i experience it on my own...i'm going to....HAHAHA
But..i scared the pain and the sound of the tattoo machine...that's why i am afraid to meet the dentist too...the Zizzzz..Zizzzz...sound really really annoyed me..but i'd decided to put away all my fears and go for it!! i'm doing a tattoo this month!!! I'd already printed out my design and i will put on my MP3 to ignore the annouying Zizzzz..Zizzzz..sound.
I will not ask for my parents permission since every time I brought up that idea, my parents said something along the lines of, “We’re kicking you out of the house AND we’re not paying for your grad school tuition if we saw some painting on your body!!”
Some of my girl friends reports that getting a tattoo is the second most painful experience of their life, next to childbirth. Boys said :'' Ahh...is nothing...just like ant bites..." So i will never know which one of them is true until i experience it on my own...i'm going to....HAHAHA
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Oh i'm doing my dad job!!
So many of my friends had been asking me the same question recently....
" Wei~~ What are you doing now? Still study or not? "
Then i'll answer them : " working already lo..."
"Oh..What job arr?? where u working? "
" Erm..working at Kuantan lo.."
" KUANTAN??? why go so far arr..there got job? why you don't wanna work at KL? "
" Oh...i'm doing my dad job...."
" WAH...... you relax larr you..."
Even when i met my aunties, my mom friends, or my friends mom...
" Wahh ah wei, graduated already arr~~ got work already? "
" Ya i'm working already aunty...working with my dad now. "
" WAH!! Ah wei you very lucky lo..no need to work with others, no need so busy lo.."
" HUH....ya lo aunty..."
So...i really don't understand, working with your own father really that easy? really that relax...or should i say really that lucky???
I have no idea but it seems everyone i met....i mean most of them have that kind of thought..for them, kids that have family business will have brighter future.....hahahah
" Wei~~ What are you doing now? Still study or not? "
Then i'll answer them : " working already lo..."
"Oh..What job arr?? where u working? "
" Erm..working at Kuantan lo.."
" KUANTAN??? why go so far arr..there got job? why you don't wanna work at KL? "
" Oh...i'm doing my dad job...."
" WAH...... you relax larr you..."
Even when i met my aunties, my mom friends, or my friends mom...
" Wahh ah wei, graduated already arr~~ got work already? "
" Ya i'm working already aunty...working with my dad now. "
" WAH!! Ah wei you very lucky lo..no need to work with others, no need so busy lo.."
" HUH....ya lo aunty..."
So...i really don't understand, working with your own father really that easy? really that relax...or should i say really that lucky???
I have no idea but it seems everyone i met....i mean most of them have that kind of thought..for them, kids that have family business will have brighter future.....hahahah
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Baskin Robbins ice cream fondue
Last few days i went to kl and off course i won't miss shopping with my friends....so i went to midvalley to meet up with josantoes and kshi. Josantoes said she would really like to try BR ice cream fondue. Since we had already tasted HD ice cream fondue, so it is time for us to judge whether BR or HD ice cream fondue taste better....so we ordered a large ice cream fondue that come with a pot of hot melt chocolate, 10 different flavours of ice cream, fruits and cakes.
so many colors...and so really tasty~~
oh~~~ this photo can tell how much josantoes love it!!
kshi and me...we really like it too, but we won't pose like josantoes lo~~ hehe
Three of us agreed that BR ice cream fondue is much more better than HD ice cream fondue!!! i'm sorry ling beacuse you were not with us that time......so to be fair to ling i suggest four of us should pay a visit to BR next time when i go kl....
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Thanks to josantoes..i finally have something to post....huh..since few months ago...
i'm not sure whether is their IMU games or their ways of communicate....is fun anyway...
there goes the instructions....so what i need to:
1. The tagged victims have to come up with eight different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there’s no need to do this AGAIN.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE. FUN. DOING. IT
Ok....my perfect lover have to be/need to be/better be
* love my family as much as i do
* taller than me, please.....or at least same height
* love to taste great food...no matter what the price, where the place,
* good tempered...because i'm the opposite!!
* leave me when i need to be alone or hang out with my girl friends, i need privacy sometimes
* patient enough to accompany me to shopping!!! i don't mind if he's a shopaholic like me!!!
* erm...must have nice teeth.....
* a straight guy......so i don't need to mention gender already larrr
so do u guys think i still have chance to fall in love again....please~~ i want miracle!!!
i don't have eight friends to tag...so i would like to tag :
1) josantoes (is your second time d!!!)
2) mak mak Kaeshih
3) charlyn and her Beryl's chocolate factory
huh.........quite fun loo
i'm not sure whether is their IMU games or their ways of communicate....is fun anyway...
there goes the instructions....so what i need to:
1. The tagged victims have to come up with eight different points of his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there’s no need to do this AGAIN.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE. FUN. DOING. IT
Ok....my perfect lover have to be/need to be/better be
* love my family as much as i do
* taller than me, please.....or at least same height
* love to taste great food...no matter what the price, where the place,
* good tempered...because i'm the opposite!!
* leave me when i need to be alone or hang out with my girl friends, i need privacy sometimes
* patient enough to accompany me to shopping!!! i don't mind if he's a shopaholic like me!!!
* erm...must have nice teeth.....
* a straight guy......so i don't need to mention gender already larrr
so do u guys think i still have chance to fall in love again....please~~ i want miracle!!!
i don't have eight friends to tag...so i would like to tag :
1) josantoes (is your second time d!!!)
2) mak mak Kaeshih
3) charlyn and her Beryl's chocolate factory
huh.........quite fun loo
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
i can cook!!!!
my mom was away from home for a trip to Sabah with her sisters.....so is my duty to take over her jobs.....i mean JOBSSSSSS......huh....i had to do all the house chores since my house maid was away too.....for some personal reasons...
The most unbelievable thing is my dad 'request' me to cook dinner too....my mom was not so good in cooking but at least she can cooked simple dishes, i don't think what i cook can be eaten....so i called my aunt, my mom, my grandma and my friends to ask recipe and make sure i bought the right things.....
Is a shame to tell but i started preparing my dinner at 3pm....the dinner suppose to start at 7pm!!!
My dad ordered :
Teow Chew Steamed Fish
Steamed Eggs with Pork
Vegetables
My sis said looked not bad but she don't dare to try.....huh....so my dad's the first to try....After he tried my dad said taste good....huh....thank you daddy.....i knew my cooking level....
The most unbelievable thing is my dad 'request' me to cook dinner too....my mom was not so good in cooking but at least she can cooked simple dishes, i don't think what i cook can be eaten....so i called my aunt, my mom, my grandma and my friends to ask recipe and make sure i bought the right things.....
Is a shame to tell but i started preparing my dinner at 3pm....the dinner suppose to start at 7pm!!!
My dad ordered :
Teow Chew Steamed Fish
Steamed Eggs with Pork
Vegetables
My sis said looked not bad but she don't dare to try.....huh....so my dad's the first to try....After he tried my dad said taste good....huh....thank you daddy.....i knew my cooking level....
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Mushrooms growing
mushrooms are growing.....everywhere...from my head to my toe.
i can felt the strong mycelium holding me so tight.....beyond my skin.
the absorption of nutrients...so fast...until i can't felt the large intake.
mushrooms keep growing...every spores penetrated my cells and...colonies just won't stop growing.
i can't move...i can't breath....my voice just won't come out...i tried so hard...can you hear me???
i'm......i'm.......i'm what???? i'm becoming mushroom??
come on....wake up!!!!! stupid dream..........
Thursday, May 29, 2008
boring life but i'm graduated...i guess
sooo....my university life finally.....really ended, and i'm so can't wait for my trip to sarawak and bangkok....huh....what should i wear???
Friday, May 2, 2008
Kena tipu!!!
me and ling went for movie just now.....last minutes decision because i cannot tahan staying at home whole day..so after our late dinner we drove to Jusco, balakong.....i dared ling to watch ' shadow in the palace ' a Korean horror movie that i thought was not so scary after watching the preview.
we bought the last two ticket and went into the room with full of excitement......huh...the movie was damn scary!!!! for me lar....and damn damn cruel.....i remembered got one scene, the maid was tortured to death, they forced these poison needles into the maid fingers.....slowly....Aiyooo....felt cold now....i screamed out so loud....and one maid hand was chopped down because of stealing.....and the ghost came out at the end!!!!! WUAAAA........me and ling kena tipu by the movie preview....and we won't trust previews anymore.....i won't watch horror movie at cinema again...i swear????
we bought the last two ticket and went into the room with full of excitement......huh...the movie was damn scary!!!! for me lar....and damn damn cruel.....i remembered got one scene, the maid was tortured to death, they forced these poison needles into the maid fingers.....slowly....Aiyooo....felt cold now....i screamed out so loud....and one maid hand was chopped down because of stealing.....and the ghost came out at the end!!!!! WUAAAA........me and ling kena tipu by the movie preview....and we won't trust previews anymore.....i won't watch horror movie at cinema again...i swear????
Thursday, May 1, 2008
IKea~Restaurant Wong ah hua~and i'm almost drunk~
Yesterday night.....went to IKEA....no sales but is their bedroom week...walked whole night, played with almost all furnitures, kshih and me even tried a 'not so comfortable' chair worth over thousand ringgit.... we were so so noisy.........run here and there......
wei: ehh...u see u see...if say this password free two biji meatballs oo...
kshih: ohh...u say lar later
wei: u say lar
kshih: u lar.....
Ling: wat wat??
wei & kshih: ling~~ u say larr...
Then we reach the order counter....
Ling: ehh say lerr wats the password??
kshih: wei say larr...
wei: *pretend looking at cheese cake*
Laura: eee~~ say lerrrrr....
the abang at counter: * smilling & waiting *
Laura: eeeee~~ PAX wardrobe ten........eehh...bla bla bla...
then end up no one want to eat the FREE meatballs...we walked around IKEA after having meatballs....
Then we went to Jalan Alor...lots lots good food at there..but the place is like many many hawker stalls joined become one street...haha...wanna find parking also hard loo...Ling recommended a famous restaurant, Wong Ah Hua Chicken Wing.....that's the restaurant real name...probably because their most famous dishes is BBQ chicken wings..... we ordered chicken wings, mayo prawn, hokkien mee, and few pieces fried yong tao foo.....
Then we reached their condo....and Ling and me drove back to UKM slowly....and there's no more clubbing songs on the way back......sleepy looo......
wei: ehh...u see u see...if say this password free two biji meatballs oo...
kshih: ohh...u say lar later
wei: u say lar
kshih: u lar.....
Ling: wat wat??
wei & kshih: ling~~ u say larr...
Then we reach the order counter....
Ling: ehh say lerr wats the password??
kshih: wei say larr...
wei: *pretend looking at cheese cake*
Laura: eee~~ say lerrrrr....
the abang at counter: * smilling & waiting *
Laura: eeeee~~ PAX wardrobe ten........eehh...bla bla bla...
then end up no one want to eat the FREE meatballs...we walked around IKEA after having meatballs....
Laura: ohh...this very nice huh??
kshih: ehh, i wana try the most expensive chair
wei: i want this for my new room...that also want.yo this suit my room!!
Ling: you see wei arr..what also want..eh that orange sofa suit ur room huh...
kshih sis: ....................................
Laura: my room at Kuching also this big, wah..if renovate like that i like loo
kshih: eh..this i wanna buy for my dad...this i wanna buy for my mom
Laura: yo..this ur dad don like...that one ur mom won use
kshih: oh...okok
kshi sis: ZZzzz....Zzzzz...
khih: eeeee....got sell candles...if my room got romantic huh...
Ling: wei~~ this can put in j*** room..can put perfumes...
wei: too deep, too big...that one can...eh my room can buy one also huh...
phone rang.......(romantic ring tone)
Ling: dear..yes i'm at ikea lo...i bought you a box, can put ur perfumes..hehe..oh..haha...
wei: wah...this frame i want..that notice board i want..i won use but i want..
Laura: huh..this also buy..ehh this is my table lamp, ehh that is my tong sampah...
wei: ehh ur tong sampah? nice huh..i wan i wan
Laura: buy lar buy larrrr
wei: buy for what arr??
Laura: then dun buy loo
wei: ok
On the way to cashier
wei: haiz....wanna buy now or...but now pok kai wor.....but no buy can't sleep ler
Laura: buy cheapest one
wei: okok..
Ling: *still online* haha...hehe...dear...haha....oh....hehe
kshih: i wanna go toilet
Ling: i wana go also...dear...hehe...haha....oh....
kshih sis: Zzzzzzz........ZZZZzzzzz......(snoring)
kshih: ehh, i wana try the most expensive chair
wei: i want this for my new room...that also want.yo this suit my room!!
Ling: you see wei arr..what also want..eh that orange sofa suit ur room huh...
kshih sis: ....................................
Laura: my room at Kuching also this big, wah..if renovate like that i like loo
kshih: eh..this i wanna buy for my dad...this i wanna buy for my mom
Laura: yo..this ur dad don like...that one ur mom won use
kshih: oh...okok
kshi sis: ZZzzz....Zzzzz...
khih: eeeee....got sell candles...if my room got romantic huh...
Ling: wei~~ this can put in j*** room..can put perfumes...
wei: too deep, too big...that one can...eh my room can buy one also huh...
phone rang.......(romantic ring tone)
Ling: dear..yes i'm at ikea lo...i bought you a box, can put ur perfumes..hehe..oh..haha...
wei: wah...this frame i want..that notice board i want..i won use but i want..
Laura: huh..this also buy..ehh this is my table lamp, ehh that is my tong sampah...
wei: ehh ur tong sampah? nice huh..i wan i wan
Laura: buy lar buy larrrr
wei: buy for what arr??
Laura: then dun buy loo
wei: ok
On the way to cashier
wei: haiz....wanna buy now or...but now pok kai wor.....but no buy can't sleep ler
Laura: buy cheapest one
wei: okok..
Ling: *still online* haha...hehe...dear...haha....oh....hehe
kshih: i wanna go toilet
Ling: i wana go also...dear...hehe...haha....oh....
kshih sis: Zzzzzzz........ZZZZzzzzz......(snoring)
Then we went to Jalan Alor...lots lots good food at there..but the place is like many many hawker stalls joined become one street...haha...wanna find parking also hard loo...Ling recommended a famous restaurant, Wong Ah Hua Chicken Wing.....that's the restaurant real name...probably because their most famous dishes is BBQ chicken wings..... we ordered chicken wings, mayo prawn, hokkien mee, and few pieces fried yong tao foo.....
wei: drink beer arr tonight so happy
Laura: okok
aunty that takes order: wah..beer arr..so can drink arr....two big k...
kshih sis:..........................
kshih: ohh this veri veri ZUO TENG larrr
Ling: huh..yalar...that also ZUA TENG...
Laura, kshih, wei & kshih sis: wuahahahaha.....ZUA TENG!!!! huahahahaha!!!
End up...i'm the loser...half drunk after drank only one glass of beer....then we brought back the small towel they gave for cleaning our hands because we insisted that they had charged in the bill.
On The Way Back
Radio: boiboiboiboi...boiboiboiboiboi....i do what i think you like i do i do i do......
wei: CLUBBING!!!!! HUH!! LONG TIME NO CLUBBING
Laura: cannot lar...exam ler
Ling: you see you see...pungggung gatal lar..got exam like no exam lar u....
kshih sis: Zzzzz.....*dreaming* huh..got snakes in my camp....huh....password...bunga...wrong?
kshih: the song made me feel like wanna go clubbing
Laura: yaloo...the song nice lerr
Ling: you see you see....huh....
wei: CLUBBING!!!!!! CLUBBING!!!!
Laura, kshih & Ling: haiz...still drunk lar this wei
Laura: if now go back change then must be late d...cannot larr
Ling: yalar..i wore so nice d..makeup some more...wei larr wore like go pasar
kshih: hehe Zuo teng, Zua teng....
Laura: okok....sat night larr..i study on fri...won go out
wei: you eat chicken popcorn lar at home
Ling: yaya...you cook and eat at home, then go club on sat
kshih sis: *still dreaming* huh...you dunnu password? wahhh....ghost wahhhhh....
Laura: okok i'll try larr ( actually wanna go like crazy, cannot tahan d )
Laura: okok
aunty that takes order: wah..beer arr..so can drink arr....two big k...
kshih sis:..........................
kshih: ohh this veri veri ZUO TENG larrr
Ling: huh..yalar...that also ZUA TENG...
Laura, kshih, wei & kshih sis: wuahahahaha.....ZUA TENG!!!! huahahahaha!!!
End up...i'm the loser...half drunk after drank only one glass of beer....then we brought back the small towel they gave for cleaning our hands because we insisted that they had charged in the bill.
On The Way Back
Radio: boiboiboiboi...boiboiboiboiboi....i do what i think you like i do i do i do......
wei: CLUBBING!!!!! HUH!! LONG TIME NO CLUBBING
Laura: cannot lar...exam ler
Ling: you see you see...pungggung gatal lar..got exam like no exam lar u....
kshih sis: Zzzzz.....*dreaming* huh..got snakes in my camp....huh....password...bunga...wrong?
kshih: the song made me feel like wanna go clubbing
Laura: yaloo...the song nice lerr
Ling: you see you see....huh....
wei: CLUBBING!!!!!! CLUBBING!!!!
Laura, kshih & Ling: haiz...still drunk lar this wei
Laura: if now go back change then must be late d...cannot larr
Ling: yalar..i wore so nice d..makeup some more...wei larr wore like go pasar
kshih: hehe Zuo teng, Zua teng....
Laura: okok....sat night larr..i study on fri...won go out
wei: you eat chicken popcorn lar at home
Ling: yaya...you cook and eat at home, then go club on sat
kshih sis: *still dreaming* huh...you dunnu password? wahhh....ghost wahhhhh....
Laura: okok i'll try larr ( actually wanna go like crazy, cannot tahan d )
Then we reached their condo....and Ling and me drove back to UKM slowly....and there's no more clubbing songs on the way back......sleepy looo......
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
bye bye VIVA......
so my VIVA is over...twenty minutes seem so short for me because is just an informal conversation between lecturers...i went in the room that i described as creepy and cold and three lecturers were sitting in front of me, not as horrible as i thought.....they all looked so friendly today...and one of them even made a cold joke.....('.'lll) but this really help released my tension and i didn't felt scared or nervous anymore......i prefer this kind of presentation actually...because you can talk like friends and have discussion about what problems you faced with them...no tension at all....huh...i'm wearing like going for a serious interview but end up just a relax and easy conversation...cool...would it be nice if i knew this earlier...so i won't posted my previous blog and tension whole night loo.....huh...i'm like graduated d...still have two more paper next week.....plan to go clubbing...go shopping...go everywhere and taste all nice food.....huh...lazy me.......
Just uploaded a few new songs from UNGU, Indonesian group ....i think they are cool...a sort of THE CALLING in indon version....hehe...i'm not listening to malay songs because i'm like malay girl...or i'm from kelantan...or because of ' ma lai kong '.....bla bla bla...i just like all kind of musics...and i'm a huge fan for PETERPAN + NIDJI......huhu....maybe i'm half malay lar.....who cares right.......
Just uploaded a few new songs from UNGU, Indonesian group ....i think they are cool...a sort of THE CALLING in indon version....hehe...i'm not listening to malay songs because i'm like malay girl...or i'm from kelantan...or because of ' ma lai kong '.....bla bla bla...i just like all kind of musics...and i'm a huge fan for PETERPAN + NIDJI......huhu....maybe i'm half malay lar.....who cares right.......
Monday, April 28, 2008
tell me what to do....
i really have no idea at all how to face my prof. tomorrow...because tomorrow is my VIVA, my thesis presentation...and i dun have a shit to present because is just a terrible mistake at the 1st place....huh...tell me what to do...i dunnu what can i do....i'll be totally screw up tomorrow and no one can safe me....but luckily no one can laugh at me because only the person who present can go in...that's mean only me, my clumsy and irresponsible prof, and my examiner that will shoot me ' kau kau ' in that cold creepy room....where i'll be kill with all that theories and facts that i'll never find out the rest of my life!!!! arghhhhh.....i hate tomorrow..i wish there's no tomorrow in my chapters of life....even worst when i found lots..i mean load of mistakes that will makes me even stupid tomorrow...so nothing i can do...i'll put on my formal wear which i think i looked more smart wearing it..and just walk in the room...try to explain all errors in a more polite ways..i'll hope for the best...because this is not the worst situation...it means i had a more terrible situation before...haha...
Saturday, April 26, 2008
During my free time (almost everyday) one of the most enjoyable entertainment (beside clubbing), is to go sing karaoke with my friends....especially ling, laura & kshi....
last wed, we went without any planning...student price mah....from 3 o'clock til 5 we sang non-stop + laugh non-stop + jokes non-stop + drink non-stop + laugh at fat malay girl butt non-stop kua!!!! and then we extend half an hour more in a capsule (where everyone can see and hear your voice, and is in front of the cinema exit).... huh...and we decided to choose ' different type of style' for that day....well, i present you the last song we sang that day.....and laura's the pro that videotaping US....kshi?? sitting beside me and pretend that she dunno the song.... ('.'lll)......
last wed, we went without any planning...student price mah....from 3 o'clock til 5 we sang non-stop + laugh non-stop + jokes non-stop + drink non-stop + laugh at fat malay girl butt non-stop kua!!!! and then we extend half an hour more in a capsule (where everyone can see and hear your voice, and is in front of the cinema exit).... huh...and we decided to choose ' different type of style' for that day....well, i present you the last song we sang that day.....and laura's the pro that videotaping US....kshi?? sitting beside me and pretend that she dunno the song.... ('.'lll)......
Thursday, April 24, 2008
moving again........
i hate moving house but i need to move again.....to Kuantan...but i hope this is not my last move..i don't wanna stay at Kuantan forever!!!!!!!
But.....if...nah....i said if huh....i meet a perfect guy at there....maybe lorr...
But.....if...nah....i said if huh....i meet a perfect guy at there....maybe lorr...
Monday, April 21, 2008
these hard times...
my student life is going to end in one month......count properly i had spent almost half of my life in school...and now say goodbye, these days is gone...but i'll keep learning new things in my future off course...as a permanent full time assistant manager...huh...how's my tittle?? i think is really cool and i'll work as hard to maintain my tittle.....
so...matchbox twenty new song " these hard times" is the song i listen to....because the song really describe this moment of my life....should recommend to all my schoolmates too...haha...these hard times has gone....when all we need is another level of our life....should make a big step forward..say goodbye to our student life..no more lecture, assignments, library, tutoring......what we will face in the future will be more challenge.....good luck to all of us...don't feel empty at this moment....
Sunday, April 20, 2008
my final paper will be on this tuesday....but i haven't start anything....and i really have no mood, i mean really no mood this time...i really can't memorize, not even finish reading my notes!!! WHY!!!! huh...i don't wanna extend because of my laziness....try hard to start few pages tonight....please lar......study for your last sem wei wei....huh....back to study..bye
Thursday, April 17, 2008
i'm the perfect stranger
so...last few months, i met a bunch of gals....really fun and friendly gals through my best friend friends.....huh...laura and kshi IMU friends....they all are course mates...but they are the coolest...i hope i have friends like them at my place....but charlyn is the only gal that i hang out and sleep with....
last week i went dinner and club with laura's friends....what can i say....at first abit shy...because i'm totally stranger in their group, i know nothing about their school, their lecturer, ang their friends bf???? huh....but i really like to know actually....although i'm not student from IMU....at the club...oh...is really really fun...i can't wait for our next visit....but is my last month at kl...after that i'll move to kuantan....huh..i wonder can i meet friends like them at there.......haiz....
so....i'm the stranger that night...but i'm the perfect stranger huh....haha...i hope they really likes me.....bye.....see you guys soon looo...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
~Kau begitu sempurna~
Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku
akan selalu mengingatmu
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku kau begitu....
Sempurna....
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku
akan selalu mengingatmu
Disetiap langkahku
Kukan selalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa kubayangkan
Hidupku tanpa cintamu
Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku kau begitu....
Sempurna....
Kau genggam tanganku....
Saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
Kau bisikkan kata
Dan hapus semua sesalku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku kau begitu....
Sempurna....
Monday, April 14, 2008
the day you went away......
Finally i had pass up my thesis draft.....although is just a draft..still i had spent almost my whole semester to publish it....huh...but not much effort from me....i hate doing this kinda "waste paper and ink" project.
When i glance through my draft....i really don't think my thesis and research will contribute any information or reference for the next generation....Basically, what i had done is just to repeat what they had done...yeah the line on the first page was so right, thesis submitted in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of ......... Na they let you know earlier is just a partial fulfillment....low standard and low quality.....so don't mind if the thesis you publish spend the rest of it's life in the reference room cupboard.....and the room is lock....hahaha....cool right.....
My thesis had a load of errors...but who cares? yeah is actually my thesis i'm talking about that went away finally....haha...BYE BYE.....next will be my presentation that i wanna send away too...
When i glance through my draft....i really don't think my thesis and research will contribute any information or reference for the next generation....Basically, what i had done is just to repeat what they had done...yeah the line on the first page was so right, thesis submitted in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of ......... Na they let you know earlier is just a partial fulfillment....low standard and low quality.....so don't mind if the thesis you publish spend the rest of it's life in the reference room cupboard.....and the room is lock....hahaha....cool right.....
My thesis had a load of errors...but who cares? yeah is actually my thesis i'm talking about that went away finally....haha...BYE BYE.....next will be my presentation that i wanna send away too...
Sunday, April 13, 2008
....Aku Bukan Untukmu....
A great song by Rossa from Indonesia....
Dahulu kau mencintaiku
Dahulu kau menginginkanku
Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal telah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal telah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku
Dahulu kau menginginkanku
Meskipun tak pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal telah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan kumohon maafkan aku
Aku menyesal telah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu
Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku
Saturday, April 12, 2008
internal hernias........what's that???
last Tuesday....i woke up and took a bath, prepare to have along day in front of my laptop because this Friday is my thesis end date......suddenly my dad called....he said...my mom was in the hospital and the doctor said she needs to undergo an immediate major operation.....WHAT?????
i change my clothes in 10 second..get myself ready and rush to the airport.....spent RM260 for air ticket but still have to wait until afternoon for the latest flight......when i reach hospital my mom already in the surgical room...and my dad don't even know the cause and what type of surgery is going to happen my mom.....huh....my heart beat so fast and hard at that moment....i don't have anything to do except to wait and pray for her.....
4 hours later....the doctor came out and tell us my mom was alright....she suffered from a sudden disease called internal hernia....is a very rare case but my mom was lucky because she was sent to the hospital at the right time....huh....thank god!!!
Internal hernia is an uncommon cause of small bowel obstruction. Intestinal obstruction due to internal hernia is very dangerous and lethal because it may be silent or may present as severe acute abdominal pain. we describe a transmesnteric hernia recently came to our department, which was diagnosed on typical intravenous and intraluminal contrast enhanced CT findings followed by CT angiography to characterize the vascular changes.
i change my clothes in 10 second..get myself ready and rush to the airport.....spent RM260 for air ticket but still have to wait until afternoon for the latest flight......when i reach hospital my mom already in the surgical room...and my dad don't even know the cause and what type of surgery is going to happen my mom.....huh....my heart beat so fast and hard at that moment....i don't have anything to do except to wait and pray for her.....
4 hours later....the doctor came out and tell us my mom was alright....she suffered from a sudden disease called internal hernia....is a very rare case but my mom was lucky because she was sent to the hospital at the right time....huh....thank god!!!
Internal hernia is an uncommon cause of small bowel obstruction. Intestinal obstruction due to internal hernia is very dangerous and lethal because it may be silent or may present as severe acute abdominal pain. we describe a transmesnteric hernia recently came to our department, which was diagnosed on typical intravenous and intraluminal contrast enhanced CT findings followed by CT angiography to characterize the vascular changes.
Monday, April 7, 2008
the sky is still blue.....
i took this picture when i was on a vacation with my family to bukit tinggi....although is not pro enough but i still consider this as a good picture lar because i use my hand phone instead of camera. Sometimes i really don't understand why.....so many question marks is my life.....
Why i need to study all this boring subjects since i doesn't even have chance to relate them in my future work, why i need to do my final year thesis that won't even benefit either me or my juniors, why i need to be so concentrate in my typing even though i have no results for my lab work...why i don't dare to tell the truth that my prof had gave me the wrong info that lead me to the wrong way....as a result...no result at all....why can't i just stop doing all this and start my vacation journey and come back earlier to help my dad in his shop......WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!
huh.......really really tired when i have this kinda stupid question crossing my brain......but i cannot come out with this kinda questions...people will sure have answers and reason to SHOOT me back....because they have brain to think too....that's one of the reason i hate people for sometimes....too smart sometimes....haiz....
So back to this picture...i love it so much because pictures don't ask question...they answer our question...when i looked through the pictures i took long time ago...it made me realize how fast human changed..within a second..u can just loose your friend forever....i didn't mean they dead or disappear, what i mean is the way they treat us or their attitudes..for examples this picture, really calm me down and it says...the sky is still blue although it's raining day.....so you still have the sun if you loose your light....still can feel the warm if you can't find a jac...won't lose anyway because you still have your life.....haha..back to my typing after this..... loL
i surrender......
Sunday, April 6, 2008
( ' _'lll)
OMG!!!! i have one week leave to prepare for my final year project....and that's it...end of my " school stuff ". Sometimes i try to imagine the day i graduate......erm.....
ok...nevermind...i don't care so much anyway because i have had a job before i graduate....a good one i think....yeah i will go back and help my daddy....i know what you guys trying to say.....don't dare to face the real life, daddy's little girl, no ambition.....WHATEVER!!!!
different people with different thought, for me helping my daddy is a great job and i can learn way to survive like everyone else, but the different is i learn it from my dad. i believe he'll teach me as much as he knows to make sure his little girl learn how to live without his guide in the future...and i will appreciate that my whole life......
i am so thankful to know my next step is going to be easier than most other people that have to work and struggle in a new and strange environment.....they will get use to it after a while anyway, but i just skip that part and i should be so thankful........i still can survive like them i believe......hehe
ok...nevermind...i don't care so much anyway because i have had a job before i graduate....a good one i think....yeah i will go back and help my daddy....i know what you guys trying to say.....don't dare to face the real life, daddy's little girl, no ambition.....WHATEVER!!!!different people with different thought, for me helping my daddy is a great job and i can learn way to survive like everyone else, but the different is i learn it from my dad. i believe he'll teach me as much as he knows to make sure his little girl learn how to live without his guide in the future...and i will appreciate that my whole life......
i am so thankful to know my next step is going to be easier than most other people that have to work and struggle in a new and strange environment.....they will get use to it after a while anyway, but i just skip that part and i should be so thankful........i still can survive like them i believe......hehe
Friday, April 4, 2008
i keep thinking something gonna change........but sometimes love just ain't enough....
I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And i don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But i don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool i keep losing my place
And i keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now i could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes i may have hurt you
But i did not desert you
Maybe i just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something gonna change
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where i used to lay
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know its your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And i don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But i don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool i keep losing my place
And i keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now i could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes i may have hurt you
But i did not desert you
Maybe i just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something gonna change
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where i used to lay
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know its your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
nEar but i am happY.....
Last weekend i went back to my hometown at kelantan to accompany my dearest family to kuantan....my future workplace....well at first all i know is BORING....because i cannot accept the reality that i had reach that state....people called the matured state that you need to earn your own money, experience your live, learn and be responsible with all the steps you have taken....the biggest and huge challenge for me...is to make my own, that's mean no one will ever make decision for me anymore.....for teenager is freedom...for people like me.....is suffer..............
since there's nothing to do during weekend..my mom suggested that we visit bukit tinggi, somewhere near but still need a couple of hours to reach from kuantan....so my brother drove us there and we all decided to stay overnight at there.....
Bukit tinggi...is a place for relaxation...you feel peaceful and really quite at there...they don have a load of entertainment but still have place for you and family to drinks and talk....and performance during night really cheer people up...and you can see small group of live band singing love songs for those couples who spent their holiday at there.....
For us....family conservation is very important....we talk alomost everything...which we haven't do for long time because me and my bro were always far away from them. we took photos, have breakfast, lunch and dinner....everything were so perfect and warm......and i really love to have times with family.
i realize, there's no need to visit a very far or famous place to keep our family together, as long as you have the heart to be with them...every place seems so fun......i am looking forward for the next family trip!!!
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Last greenbox with you aLL...
Yesterday night went to celebrate two of my house mates birthday.....is a tradition for our house...thats mean we went there every year since we met to celebrate their birthday.....although i seldom hang out with them because most of the times i will go out with my dear charlyn, but ....it was a long, memorable night for me though...so next year won't be celebrating with them anymore....luckily still have dozens of photos to refresh my memory in the future....
Monday, March 24, 2008
SEE YOU AGAIN.........('',)
my friends always tell me..don't worry about being single..you will meet your Mr. right one day...so the day had came..
i "accidentally" met a friend through facebook..well sounds rude for him but really can't find a better word to describe....and we became close after few times chatting...he told me about his trip to bangkok, how he find himself so into histories at China, and how he tried to chase his dream girl at there but at last he came back alone...still single!! He went almost everywhere and he loves taking photos with different weird but funny pose..Hong Kong, Bali, Islands, Singapore....He just loves to travel...
....And he ask me out...oh my god i am so so nervous...i always advice my friends not to meet up with friends like this but i say YES this time....and i am not regret after i went out with him....he's really funny and cute...cutest i had ever met for this year...hahaha...i gave him 80% out of 100% for the first impression..
we went dinner together and after that we watched a comedy..although is my second time watching that movie...but this time i laughed louder then before...i can be MYSELF in front of him...i can laugh out loud like i always do, wear as casual and as sporty i want...enjoy my supper and don't even have to worry about my weight, although i am trying hard to put down my weight...WOW!! what can i say...one night is more than enough for me....
But his leaving to Beijing after one week and will stay at there for three months...so..we will just be friend for now...long distance is the most suffer relationship for me...and what can i say...we just went out one night...maybe my first impression for him not as perfect as i thought him...so...not a bad thing to have one more friend...especially friend that you thinks he's so cute and humorous...
Take good care and make sure you gain as much life experience that helps you through your future....i will miss you for these few weeks...haha...
i "accidentally" met a friend through facebook..well sounds rude for him but really can't find a better word to describe....and we became close after few times chatting...he told me about his trip to bangkok, how he find himself so into histories at China, and how he tried to chase his dream girl at there but at last he came back alone...still single!! He went almost everywhere and he loves taking photos with different weird but funny pose..Hong Kong, Bali, Islands, Singapore....He just loves to travel...
....And he ask me out...oh my god i am so so nervous...i always advice my friends not to meet up with friends like this but i say YES this time....and i am not regret after i went out with him....he's really funny and cute...cutest i had ever met for this year...hahaha...i gave him 80% out of 100% for the first impression..
we went dinner together and after that we watched a comedy..although is my second time watching that movie...but this time i laughed louder then before...i can be MYSELF in front of him...i can laugh out loud like i always do, wear as casual and as sporty i want...enjoy my supper and don't even have to worry about my weight, although i am trying hard to put down my weight...WOW!! what can i say...one night is more than enough for me....
But his leaving to Beijing after one week and will stay at there for three months...so..we will just be friend for now...long distance is the most suffer relationship for me...and what can i say...we just went out one night...maybe my first impression for him not as perfect as i thought him...so...not a bad thing to have one more friend...especially friend that you thinks he's so cute and humorous...
Take good care and make sure you gain as much life experience that helps you through your future....i will miss you for these few weeks...haha...
Thursday, March 20, 2008
bag'aholic???
i seriously have to change...if not i cannot survive...sometimes woman's like using 'shopping' as an excuse to express their madness or when they are sad..the most suitable example is in front of u...is ME!!!!
I'm the worst in the worst i can tell...i always bought things that i love but i won't use....but sometimes nice things have very limited function. For example, a really nice bag normally can't put enormous stuff in it. and you probably won't do that because it will spoil your bag. The price is the major problem, expensive but you can't put all your stuff in it?? if my mom's knew she would probably said: "WHAT?? you spent so much money buy a bag that have space only for your hp and wallet? then you better buy a plastic bag.....my bag can .....bla bla......" so....why ppl still spent that kinda money??
i have dozens of bag that have limited space but when i bring along to shopping, my friends will tell my my bag is really nice...and some said they want to buy this kind of bag a long time ago but they just can't find it? they ask where to buy and their first thing to do the next weekend is to search for the BAG that your using....the one that have very limited space.....huh...sometimes this cheer me up and i walk proudly with my little bag besides me...
no matter what...i just LOVE to shop for bags and those woman stuff.....i don't care my wardrobe full with all those " nice " things..i know i will have chance to use it one day......i just knew it...and...that's why i bought a really small and quite expensive bag today...and i am happy :)
I'm the worst in the worst i can tell...i always bought things that i love but i won't use....but sometimes nice things have very limited function. For example, a really nice bag normally can't put enormous stuff in it. and you probably won't do that because it will spoil your bag. The price is the major problem, expensive but you can't put all your stuff in it?? if my mom's knew she would probably said: "WHAT?? you spent so much money buy a bag that have space only for your hp and wallet? then you better buy a plastic bag.....my bag can .....bla bla......" so....why ppl still spent that kinda money??
i have dozens of bag that have limited space but when i bring along to shopping, my friends will tell my my bag is really nice...and some said they want to buy this kind of bag a long time ago but they just can't find it? they ask where to buy and their first thing to do the next weekend is to search for the BAG that your using....the one that have very limited space.....huh...sometimes this cheer me up and i walk proudly with my little bag besides me...
no matter what...i just LOVE to shop for bags and those woman stuff.....i don't care my wardrobe full with all those " nice " things..i know i will have chance to use it one day......i just knew it...and...that's why i bought a really small and quite expensive bag today...and i am happy :)
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
if it makes you happy...it can't be that bad...
i am worried about my dear friend...she's the greatest room mate and friend i had ever met..recently she met a guy...a good guy i can tell... he can be the most perfect bf for her because he got everything she want.....a great job, a nice car, a good look, an appropriate height, and his smile would probably wash away her moody face and this guy really makes her laugh..........but he don't have time.....and that's a huge problem for now...
my best friend was so free almost everyday...because she's still studying...i now understand why people miss the moment at school....and is the most valuable memory for them...and the "Mr. good guy" is busy with his job almost everyday include weekends plus holiday....he can hardly squeeze a second for my girlfriend until he finish all his job...and this will be a great opportunity for her to get angry.....
she's not so happy these few days because he can't promise her a trip to an island...well girl...if he makes you happy....it can't be that bad.....then why the hell that you so sad.....just try your best to keep this relationship because if you deserve him...then you will own her heart no matter what....huh..i hope their relationship can last forever......
my best friend was so free almost everyday...because she's still studying...i now understand why people miss the moment at school....and is the most valuable memory for them...and the "Mr. good guy" is busy with his job almost everyday include weekends plus holiday....he can hardly squeeze a second for my girlfriend until he finish all his job...and this will be a great opportunity for her to get angry.....
she's not so happy these few days because he can't promise her a trip to an island...well girl...if he makes you happy....it can't be that bad.....then why the hell that you so sad.....just try your best to keep this relationship because if you deserve him...then you will own her heart no matter what....huh..i hope their relationship can last forever......
~~The Best song that describe my feeling~~
Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love...
i kept repeated this song...every morning after i wake up, and every night before i sleep..i remember the first time i brought him to my friends...they gave me a " surprise " looked....that i had expected..he's a Malay guy...but like she sang..i don't care what they say, how they think, and how they feel...because something really happened between us..something very special that totally changed me...but at last...is really hard to believe that we end up like this...yes he did cut me open..and i did bleed...nothing hurts me more when a guy do wrong but still pretend that his right...and keep deny the truth....i am getting tired i guess..but i will wear this scars for the rest of my life....
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love...
i kept repeated this song...every morning after i wake up, and every night before i sleep..i remember the first time i brought him to my friends...they gave me a " surprise " looked....that i had expected..he's a Malay guy...but like she sang..i don't care what they say, how they think, and how they feel...because something really happened between us..something very special that totally changed me...but at last...is really hard to believe that we end up like this...yes he did cut me open..and i did bleed...nothing hurts me more when a guy do wrong but still pretend that his right...and keep deny the truth....i am getting tired i guess..but i will wear this scars for the rest of my life....
Monday, March 17, 2008
bad mood day........ :(
i have no idea why but i'm really not in the mood today...wake up at 9a.m. still i don't feel like leaving my bed......okay i missed my 10 o'clock class and PS msg me.....still i don't feel like leaving my bed.....i rather spend my time alone in my room....listen to my favorite love song....although they sound so sad for me....but sometimes alone is better then to mingle with those "rude and like to take advantages on other ppl" friends..........
well, he called 7 times today but i didn't pick up his phone call...i don't know what to say....should i just act really cool and greet him like a friend, or should i answer his phone call and cry like those heart broken teenager and ask for his explanation??i don't want both....i just want his voice disappear in my memory....and after a while his voice will become a stranger to me.......huh.what we thought always seems so easy then what we do....this is real life and i shouldn't be ashame to face my relationship problems...everyone has their own problems anyway...just that they don't share with their friends......and suffer on their own i guess...
i'm still in a bad mood.....and no one can help me unless myself....so please be strong andrea!!! love yourself........more than anyone else.
well, he called 7 times today but i didn't pick up his phone call...i don't know what to say....should i just act really cool and greet him like a friend, or should i answer his phone call and cry like those heart broken teenager and ask for his explanation??i don't want both....i just want his voice disappear in my memory....and after a while his voice will become a stranger to me.......huh.what we thought always seems so easy then what we do....this is real life and i shouldn't be ashame to face my relationship problems...everyone has their own problems anyway...just that they don't share with their friends......and suffer on their own i guess...
i'm still in a bad mood.....and no one can help me unless myself....so please be strong andrea!!! love yourself........more than anyone else.
sometimes love just ain't enough.....
he's the reason i start writing my blog....... i had met a guy one year ago....i thought he was the right one for me...everything seems so great and happy when we were together...i laugh when he was joking, i wore dress and put on makeup just for him, i slept late just to went supper with him, i stop clubbing because he doesn't like it......i likes washing his clothes and wake him up every morning although he seldom pick up my phone call....just to hear his voice before i sleep can make me dream about him all night...i was crazy in love with him and i thought he felt the same way like me.....just when i thought we will have more great time together....time and distance change everything.......and sadness began.................... i am too sad to write what's happen latter...sometimes taking chances is not what we thought....Celine Dion sang : "what do you say to taking chances..."but what do you say when people changed as time goes by...because..."this is going too fast and maybe is not meant to last". So...what do you say......i had nothing to say.........just let it fade away....
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